Heart Warrior: Facing The Fears Of Our Disease To Truly Live

Looking back on the past 7 years since my Congenital Heart Disease diagnosis, I realized that I was always running from it. Every day, I was forced to face my disease straight on, but I continued sweeping it under the rug. I refused to talk about it, and even downplayed the seriousness of my disease….

Standing up to PTSD

“Stop. Be afraid. Something is wrong. Give up now.” . This what my PTSD says to me. I’m scared. I’m afraid while driving to Bend; something just doesn’t feel right. I look down at my heart monitor – one event. Im afraid while picking up my bouldering book from a mountain supply store in Bend….

Inclusion, Not Seclusion

  When you stare and silently judge, it makes my process of healing and self-acceptance more difficult. Nodes on my body, wires, and a heart monitor – it’s not what you see every day. I try to hide, be discreet, and not cause unnecessary distraction. I don’t want the attention; I want to hide. But…

Battling Heart Disease – More Than A Survivor

Heart disease doesn’t care if I’m on vacation – sometimes, it will decide to drop me like a sandbag when I least expect it. Dave and I were readying ourselves for a difficult hike in Red Rocks, when out of nowhere, my heart decided it had different intentions. I was putting my hair in a…

My Someday: To Be Heart Strong

In 2012, I curled up in my bed, pleading with God to save me from this disease. Life was almost unbearable. I couldn’t keep living the way I was, in and out of the hospital, lost as a person, a stranger in my own skin, and in what felt like one thousand pieces on the…

Moving Past Our Disease And Remembering The Pain

When you hide the pain, you suffocate joy. My boyfriend recently shared with me the following video clip, published by The North Face and titled, “Adventure Not War”. This short video features Stacy Bare, a former United States Army Captain who fought in the Iraq war, eventually came home, and questioned why he lived and…

Congenital Heart Disease is Relentless, But So Are We.

It has taken me about one week to write this post, because I wasn’t ready to face the flood of emotions, let alone discuss something so vulnerable publicly. However, the reason I started this site and blog was to help others who are going through similar circumstances, but too afraid to live their life. My…

Journey Into The Unknown: My Leap of Faith

My fight to live began about 6 years ago when my body attacked itself, causing my heart to fail and almost taking my livelihood. I thought my biggest battle would be clawing out of the black hole that was my health. Back then, everything was just so difficult and I had so much fear for…

Life With Congenital Heart Disease: Why I Climb

I recently returned from a quick getaway to Santa Cruz, filled with rock climbing, hiking, and a stroll along the Boardwalk. My boyfriend found a photo a couple weeks back taken by Chris Burkard on Panther Beach in Santa Cruz, highlighting none other than Chris Sharma. Upon seeing this, we knew our trip needed to…

An Answered Prayer: A Life Without Limits

Six years ago, I sat on my bed, alone in my room and prayed to not be sick someday. I grasped onto the possibility that there was a light at the end of the tunnel, which was unseen. After cardioversion, failed heart procedures, pulmonic valve replacement looming in the future, and PTSD, I didn’t know…